four things you wish you could say but might never..

I’m having a hard time with this one..  If I might never say it, there’s a reason for that.. and if it’s something that important.. why would I tell my tumblr followers and not the person in question.. I’ll try I guess..  I feel like last night I said a lot that I never thought I was going to be able to say.. and I’m not going to lie.. it felt good..  so this could be cleansing.  Two of these are things that I wish I would have said.. and two of these are things I’d like to be able to say myself someday… 

one: this isn’t one thing in particular.. its many.  After my brother passed away I was left feeling lots of regret over things that I should have said, but didn’t.  I am never going to get a chance to say these things… and I will never not regret it.  

two: why didn’t we somehow make this work?  Some of you will be able to guess who this is about, but most of you probably wont.  Sometimes things just don’t work out, and it’s for the better…. but sometimes you will always regret not trying harder…

three:  I’m a millionaire.  I might not ever be able to say this in real life.. but I would definitely like to be able to someday..  

four: I do.  As in wedding I do’s.  I just don’t know if I trust relationships enough to make that big of a commitment.  I used to never want to get married.. I hated the idea of it.. but after I grew up a bit I started thinking about it… and liking the idea.  I do want to get married, and have a family, and pets, and a house… ect.. but do I really think it’ll happen?  At this point in my life… no.   Who knows if that will change.  We’ll see.