six things I love

okay, I admit.. I’m a slacker.  I failed the seven day challenge.  Whatever.  I’m still going to finish it.  :)

my family. - I’ve come to understand the importance of people you love over the past few years.  Maybe its because I’m growing up.. maybe it’s because of the unfortunate events my family has incurred over the past few years… I’m not quite sure, but either way i’ve come to realize that you can’t replace your family.  No matter what they do, they are your family and you should be there for them, and no matter what you do they will love you unconditionally.  I know this seems like simple common sense, but everyone has different relationships with different people.  I guess I just wish I could have done some things differently.  I miss my brother. 

my friends. - In reference to some of the above mentioned: my friends were there for me through all of that.  I mean really there for me. A new friend asked me recently, “How many good friends do you have? Like really good friends who you know would be there for you no matter what..”  I explained to him that I have probably 30 people that I would consider a good friend.  I have good friends all over the country I feel like.. And after responding it got me thinking.  How many of my friends, that I consider ‘good friends’ consider me a good friend back?   Friendships are a funny thing, and I’m still trying to figure some of them out, but the one thing I do know is that I’m beyond grateful for the best of friends any girl could ask for. :)

shows/music. - When I started to go to shows it changed my life.  I try to imagine what my life would be like if I hadn’t started listening to the music I do, and I have no idea what I would even be like.  I know everyone says music has the biggest impact on their lives, but I sincerely feel without the love of music and going to shows that I started to grow when I was like twelve years old, I would be nowhere near the person I am now.  I wouldn’t have the same friends, or experiences.. I wouldn’t have the same pictures or stories.. I love what I do.. and I love who I do it with… I wouldn’t change it for the world. 

traveling/roadtrips. - I love getting out of Omaha. Don’t get me wrong.. I’m content with living here.. for now.. But I do the same thing all of the time.. work. sleep. bar. shows. repeat.  I love seeing friends I don’t get to see very often in other towns, I love going places I don’t always have to go to normally.  I need to travel more outside of the midwest.  I guess traveling to Kansas City, Minneapolis, and Chicago isn’t getting tooo far.. but I will get there someday…   Vacation anyone? 

pictures. - this is simple.  I love pictures.  I love taking them, being in them, seeing them.. I love being able to look back at pictures and remember everything about that night. I love having to look at the pictures because you remember nothing from that night.  I wish I had a better camera… note to self: save some money for a sick cam. 

spring/being in love. - most people probably think that it’s weird that I grouped these two together. spring reminds me of being in love for some reason. Maybe it’s something about everything greening after winter.. or the smell of spring.. either way I love everything about spring.. it’s always been my favorite holiday.. To me, spring goes hand in hand with love. I’m not sure anymore if I’ve even experienced real love.  Okay, I guess I have.. I just don’t know if I’ve really experienced full blown true real love.  I don’t know if I’m capable of letting something like that happen.  I feel like I’ve just been fucked over time and time again.. and I don’t think that I’ll ever have faith that any guy in the male race is 100 percent decent.  I know I’ll get a lot of haters for that one, but I don’t really care.. Every guy that has shown me that he’s decent.. has also shown me he’s a douche bag in one way or another. Maybe I’m just bitter, and I honestly wish I felt differently, but I don’t think that it’s real.  We’ll see. 

until next time. 

xx.