Day One: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

7. It’s always hot in my room.. which is extremely weird because I’m always cold. 

6. I work too much..  I love being busy but working 60+hours every week is wearing me down. 

5. I need to get out of Omaha!  I’m soooo sick of this town and it’s drama.  I want to be somewhere new every day and with new people all of the time.  

4. I shouldn’t waste my time on silly boys.  As most of you know I don’t have the most impressive track record… but this latest break up has made me realize that not only do I pick boys that aren’t good for me.. but I stick with them for the long haul thinking that they will change… and they never do.. NEVER.  So maybe next time I should ignore my vagina and think with my head.  :) 

3. I wish I spent more time with family.  I’ve come to love and understand how important family relationships are over the past year.  You don’t have the people you love forever and they can just be taken away from you out of nowhere.  Respect your parents, they put you here…. Spend time with your siblings.. they love you more than anyone else will.. and see all of your nieces/nephews/cousins as much as you can because they will always make you happy.  

2. Need to find new music!  I’ve been slacking on listening to new music lately.  I’m not sure if it’s working all of the time, or the fact that I have no CD player in my car to listen to new music.. but i’ve been slacking.  Someone give me some new stuff to listen to!!

1. you.  I hate to admit this one.. it’s not even what you’re doing or who you’re with..  It’s how I feel after I think of spending sooooo much of my life with someone only for it to end so terribly.  I wish things panned out differently.  Don’t get me wrong everyone, I’m happy being single and I know I was in an unhealthy thing for quite some time.. but I almost feel cheated.  I feel like there’s so much underlying bullshit and I feel like instead of being honest with me about what happened, you did the cop out thing and  gave me a bunch of dumb bullshit excuses.  Whatever, I guess.  It’s okay and I’ll eventually forget how cheated I feel, but in the past few months it’s consumed my thoughts on more than one occasion.   

Okay. day one complete.   have a good week everyone! <3